Today is the first day of my first maternity leave and the beginning of a new adventure for me! Motherhood?… No, this isn’t my first rodeo. A little about myself… I am 28 years old. I have a wonderful two-and-a-half-year-old daughter and I am expecting baby #2 this month. I am a wife of 3.5 years to my busy grain cleaner/welder/farmer husband. I work as a Registered Nurse in an Emergency Department. I am also currently on maternity leave from my Master of Nursing thesis program. I have been working while enrolled in University for the last ten years. For the last year or so, I have been realizing that I have lost myself somewhere in the last five years. I think that a lot of women or mothers begin to feel this way at some point…? Maybe everyone does at some point in their lives. I love my family, I love my work and my patients… but something is missing. There is a part of me that is unfulfilled. I don’t do any of my hobbies anymore. It feels as though I don’t do much for myself at all anymore. Many who are wives, mothers, or nurses are probably thinking, “Yes, this is normal honey”… but is it? I see plenty of mothers who seem like they have figured out the art of balance, who seem genuinely happy. Why can’t I have that?
I think that I have kept myself so busy and over-expended serving others the last few years, that I haven’t been looking after myself. I am so excited to have the opportunity to take a maternity leave over the next 12-18 months to focus on my family and myself. I didn’t take a maternity leave with my first child. I felt that it wasn’t good timing with work. Five years and fifty pounds later, I am desperate for a change. I want to feel happy with what I accomplish in a day. I want to feel energized and motivated again. I know that feeling this way, better about myself, will enable me to be a better wife and mother as well.
Who/where was I? I’ve always loved helping others. I used to help people work toward health and fitness goals. I was always an active person, playing various sports, running, and getting some form of physical activity for myself daily. I was truly happy and had endless energy. I took the time to cook healthy, satisfying meals and spent time with friends. I felt balance.
I finished my first degree in Spring of 2011, a Bachelor of Science in Kinesiology, Exercise and Sport Studies with a CSEP Certified Exercise Physiologist designation. I went on to Nursing, as I felt my Kin degree provided limited career opportunities. Though becoming a Registered Nurse provided me with countless career opportunities, it can be draining, time-consuming, and all-encompassing.
And so here I am… about to enter a new chapter in my life. I want to use this time to become active again, learning how to make it work with two children. I want to meet some personal goals, learn how to navigate social media, and find myself in balance along the way! I’ve decided to share this journey as a form of accountability. I’d love to hear back from you and learn from or about who is reading my blog!